Night time,
I've always feared you
since I was a tiny tot.
I grew up quickly;
only because
I had too.
Love is definitely blind,
I married young -
a monster reared it's ugly head.
My mum warned me -
"you don't know a person
until you've lived with them."
I certainly wish I'd listened
instead, I was charmed
into thinking I'd struck lucky...
A month I was treated like a Queen
then,
his words tormented my mind -
his fists bruised my face -
his body took my innocence -
plans got cancelled,
friends got fed up and
I lost everything
especially my pride.
I became more afraid of the dark
as that's when he'd usually pounce,
like a tiger waiting on its prey -
he'd be more inebriated then and
I'd be less inclined to fight him off!!
I still have to sleep with the light on
but I'm stronger now
even, if I'm paying off
that bastards debts.
Divorce is my karma
for he can hurt me nor
control me anymore.
Em, you are better off alone than to resign a life of abuse. You are free of him and with a clean slate you can rebuild your life. It is a real shame that he's left you with debt. Damn him! xx
