I try to do right by you yet anything I do is wrong in your eye's,I try to be there for your son and guide him in the right direction but even with that...You always tell me something!
Remember he's not my biological kid,I have only 2 kids that are mine,reality is that I don't have to pay your child no mind at all if I chose not to,he ain't my responsibility;
I try being a father figure to him only because he's the brother to my actual kids,plus it won't be fair to him if I acted like he doesn't exist and he just watches me treat my kids with all the love in the world...
Why do you enjoy hurting me?
Yes;I've made a lot of really big mistakes in the past since the day we got together!
Yet I can literally put the moon in your hands and you'll still hold my mistakes I've made against me;
I'm trying to do my best to make up for some of the things I did,I understand that your in pain till this day feeling like your still dealing with the consequences of my wrongful actions...therefore there's nothing I can do to make up for what I've done...But I could show you every waking day how truly sorry I am for it all and that's really all I can do to try and make amense...If you'd allow it!
The thing is that if you would really allow us to move forward without holding any type of grudge towards me then I would have more of an understatement on where I stand in your eye's;
You tell me,you love me yet contradict it by saying a whole lot of hateful things plus making it a point that I absolutely know with everything I am that you want me dead...
If we didn't have children together I would of jammed the out already a long time ago;
My kids are the only reason why I put up with all the bullshit from you and your son...I've been there trying to act like a father to your son as if he was my own blood since the day he asked me if I could be his dad;
I deserve to be there aside my kids everyday,I demand for my children to have me there to kiss them when they wake every morning and when they fall asleep every night...F that whole visitation shit...Specially after all I have done for your child for years already!
