I can't speak for others, but I know I've felt like I've had to "prove" my pain before, if that makes sense. When others want to see visible signs of weariness, like if we don't have symptoms of something, we are not suffering enough. And that's so not true. Our hurt, pain, depression, whatever else can be existing without anyone else having that insight or knowledge about it. I also took this as someone, or maybe a part of your mind, wanting to punish yourself further, yet you know you are holding guilt or regret deep in your heart, and it's already something you feel profoundly. Lots of depth in this short piece, well done.

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