This is about scattered thoughts and anxiety and feeling disoriented and being constantly in alarm. The metaphor did a very good job making me realize how many times I’ve been there and felt like this. I love that you actually used repetitions to emphasize the hesitation and unease in your mind. I love the play on words. I think I have yet to come across a writer who could yield both their linguistic skill and their deep-seated emotions to write such fine but really relatable poetry. You always blow my mind.