Self Care

by Lena   Jul 22, 2021


Self care isn’t fun

I mean maybe it is if you actually have an easy time caring about yourself

This isn’t something that has ever come naturally to me

It’s always the seemingly little things

Call me disgusting but I don’t want to shower, brush my teeth or comb my hair

Don’t want to wake up

Mostly because you aren’t there but even before then mostly because I just don’t care

These little things add up until they snowball

Now I don’t care if eat or drink

I don’t care if I like the person I’m sleeping with

I don’t care what I think

I don’t care if I get hit

Please give me a hit of anything,

Bring me a bottle to drown in

I don’t care

I don’t care

I don’t care

It’s just if I’m honest I wish that I did care

So tonight I’ll force myself to take a shower, brush my teeth and comb my hair,

And hope these things will snow ball to a beautiful place somewhere

of actually wanting to be here.

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  • 3 years ago

    by Poet on the Piano

    There is so much in this piece that I have felt and currently feel. Many people mean well when they give the advice of how self-care is important, but sometimes I feel it's talked about quite casually, like it is something that's always simple to do. But what happens when we reach that point where we honestly don't care? It's like a waiting game, just holding on. And the "not caring" can make us feel hopeless, especially if we actually want to have that excitement for something, or even the energy to do something little and find a speck of joy in it. I understand the forcing yourself to do the "upkeep", and sometimes, that's all we can do. I'd hope others wouldn't judge us for that or think it's silly that even that can be a struggle.

    I'm still waiting for that moment of peace to last longer, of purpose, and I wish the same for you. Thanks for sharing this.

    • 3 years ago

      by Lena

      Thank you for your comment. Means a lot.

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