There is so much in this piece that I have felt and currently feel. Many people mean well when they give the advice of how self-care is important, but sometimes I feel it's talked about quite casually, like it is something that's always simple to do. But what happens when we reach that point where we honestly don't care? It's like a waiting game, just holding on. And the "not caring" can make us feel hopeless, especially if we actually want to have that excitement for something, or even the energy to do something little and find a speck of joy in it. I understand the forcing yourself to do the "upkeep", and sometimes, that's all we can do. I'd hope others wouldn't judge us for that or think it's silly that even that can be a struggle.

I'm still waiting for that moment of peace to last longer, of purpose, and I wish the same for you. Thanks for sharing this.