Hey,
I’m here for at the bench,
Talking to you one more time,
It’s the 10 year mark,
Of you being gone,
Me dealing with all the darkness,
Me feeling all the pain that you felt,
I’ve been cleaning myself up,
Finally talking about your story,
For the world to know what happened,
I see why you did it,
I just wish you didn’t,
I’ve been carrying the weight of the world on my chest,
Believing it’s all my fault for why I can’t see you,
Why we both aren’t here at this damn bench,
Why I keep calling your phone,
But I need you to know,
Your room hasn’t been touched since you left it,
It holds so many memories,
I’m terrified to go in there,
Because of you,
I feel like if I step foot in there,
I’m going to have flashbacks of what happened,
Or that the mental roles are reversed,
With you finding me shooting myself in the chest,
You coming to this bench,
Bringing everything that meant the world to me,
You bringing this story to life,
I know,
I need to end this series but there’s so many more things,
Many more things to let people know,
This has been the hardest series to write,
This has been the most emotionally draining series,
But you always brought the best out in me,
And even with you gone,
You still bring out the best in me,
Because I feel you next to me,
Telling me what words to use,
Telling me that it’s a great story for people to know,
But I need to let you go for now,
Good night,
With love,
Skyler
