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i sat down
with the doctor
and asked -

doctor,

why is it
that the light
feels so damn
heavy?

why cant i
just hold on
to it?

it looks
so easy
but

why do i
always end up
dropping it?

tell me

the doctor
looked at me

put down his
drink

wiped
his mouth

and said -

boy,
it is not
the light that
is heavy

it is the
darkness
that you
insist on
keeping

if you
could only
let go

let go
of your
darkness

then
by all
means

you will
hold on to
the light

the world
will tell you
that the two
go together

light and
darkness

on some
celestial
scale

but this
is the great
deception

they cannot

and will not

contradict
themselves

not for us
or any man

so if you
could only
let go of
the darkness

you will
find and hold
on to the light

this is how
it is and will be
and ever was

i looked
down at
my aging
hands

yes, i said

if only
i could
let go