Existence

Tears build slowly
Pooling in the aching of my chest
Rising up into my throat
I cannot breathe, much less can I rest

Sorrow's heavy
Pry me open just to let it out
Yet it lurks in shadows deep
Creeping fingers stain the world with doubt

Now, reminders
Days when, how I wished for them to end
Cruel thoughts permeate my brain
Fears persist and bar me from my friends

I taste failure
Seeping from the actions I have done
Feeding my defeatist side
I've already let down everyone

Drink this goblet
Imagine, for my sake, I'm not here
Please leave me far behind, now
Signs of my existence: disappear

I am nothing
Never was, nor will I be again
Well, that's the wish at least
For this moment can we just pretend?

© Obscure 2021