Sometimes pain can be so overwhelming
that it takes you hostage,
leaving you powerless with nothing else to do
except let it throb and somehow survive through.
All day long I hear people laughing,
but I'm drowning in silent tears.
I can't wait for the day to be over,
because I am facing a reality
that I am still not used to living in.
I never thought there would be a time,
when I would write like this again,
but maybe if my ink runs out,
I can heal this brokenness inside of me.
It gets so hard to fake how you feel
when you just need to cry,
and all the windows in December
are constantly fogged up
with the darkest thoughts of my mind.
