An uninviting memory breaks through my sleep
as I remember the pain of believing
she was never coming home again.
I know you were there,
when you watched her almost fading away before our eyes,
never knowing which would be our last goodbyes.
Do you remember any of that
whilst you sit there in silence
trying to shut her out?
If you really think
that you can close your eyes
on what is right and wrong,
then take a look at her medical files
and feel reality bite you with the truth.
I don't mean to bother you or say too much,
but I don't want to leave this world
knowing that I never tried at all.
Are you hearing anything I say,
or am I just talking to myself?
It is not my place to block you
from being part of this family,
but I will do whatever it takes
to make sure that you don't break us.
You act like no one is ever here
until we could possibly offer you something.
I guess it will always have to hurt
to let you slip through my fingers
knowing that you chose not to hold onto us.
But when time runs out,
photographs and memories will soar by so fast,
you will wish to be able to reach out
and grasp them so much closer,
but it will be too late,
as one day they will be gone
and you will wish you could turn back time
and see them once again.
