Mom’s Cancer Battle

1-10-22

These last days have been the hardest
So many before that too
But then five days ago
I wasn’t sure if I’d make it through.

Around Nine months ago
Popped up this disgusting disease
It broke every wall I had
And shattered me to my knees.

My mom is my life
She is to be there until old age
Many, many years left
To add more to her page.

Never could I have thought
Things could change so fast
But here we are hoping and praying
That the cancer doesn’t last.

You were doing so good
Got rid of the stubborn cells
Then a few days ago it changed
Causing me to curse and yell.

It has moved to the brain
The last thing we wanted to hear
My moms voice is strong
But we all know she is hiding the fear.

Our mom is trying to protect us
From feeling so much pain
She’d rather make us smile
Than ever see us cry again.

To be as strong as she is
To go through any of this at all
I can only hope I can be like her
When the day comes that I fall.

There is not a world I know
Where I can’t see your beautiful face
But I know that one day
You are bound to leave this place.

I just pray it ain’t too soon
As I would not know what to do
How could I move on from this
Please, I can not lose you.

My dad is already gone
Passed when I was too small
I know we got to have more years
But if you leave, my world will crumble and fall.

I know there are some days
Where you feel rather good
But those days you get sick
Scare me more than it should.

You call us up on the phone
Laugh and bring joy in every way
Joking about this or that
Trying not to let us cry that day.

But mother please tell me
When you hang up that phone
Are you still laughing and smiling
Or are you feeling too alone.

Because I start crying
Fat tears rolling down my cheek
I love hearing your voice
But end the call and I go weak.

I know we live far enough apart
But please be honest with me
Let me cry with you
Your not alone you see.

I love how strong you are
But you don’t have to pretend
If you need someone to sit with
I will be there till the end.

There are so many things I want to tell you
So many things I want us to do
Mom please fight this battle
Give cancer a big f__k you.

But for now all I want is this
To hug you and hold you tight
Don’t let the cancer win
Put up one h_ll of a fight.

You will forever be my mom
This world’s bravest light
I will always pray for you
Each day and every night.

Please remember one thing
I will always love you
You are forever my mother
Our love is always true.