Someone You'll Miss

It's so difficult to gain that strength
to leave my bed in the morning
I feel so guilty, I feel so horrible
and the nasty thoughts start dawning

I wish I could be like others
and be better both physically and in my head
but we can't have everything we want in the world
at least, that's what my parents said

However this is something I desperately want
this is something i need
I can't look after myself like I should
and it's the thoughts I start to feed

I can't help but get angry and frustrated
get mad and take it out on you
I just get lost, I feel so alone
I'm struggling, so tell me what do I do?

Nobody can help me now
nobody can help but me
It's the first step that I need to take
the first step to feeling free

So keep in mind that I'm still healing
go easy and let me take things slow
I'll still try my god damn hardest
harder than you could ever know

I may fail and I may fall,
but that's not me giving up
I'm still hanging onto that ledge so tightly
for I wont let my mind corrupt

So please do something for me
and it's nothing more than this
understand me and support my needs
and I won't be someone you'll miss