I was all the desolations one could ever have,
all the distance of the loneliness
one could never walk without being two
without being
with you
without being able
in these voids
to converse with his echo.
I was all the broken hearts,
all who were scorched
in their thirst,
all the perched lips
trapped
in the sandglass of these arid lands,
these grimacing cluster of thorny shrubs of shapes,
this barbed drought
these incurable thirsts.
these forlorn grieves and chagrins.
I was all the friends
who've turned to icicles
in the winter nights,
of these mundane concerns,
hovering forever,
upon the rainspout of these alleys’ houses.
I was all the poems that were never written
all the moths of passion who've burned
inside and out
on the candles of wishing to kiss
in the lanterns
of some lips,
all the farewells
never pronounced,
all the nice things
never said
all the
"I love you" s never uttered,
all the sentiment never spoken,
all the sorrows never articulated,
all the treads of silk, unwoven,
crimped around the bobbin of these days.
I was all the white lilies of laughter
never moonlighted the nights.
I was all the beautiful women
withered in dry spell of love,
all the children of poverty
drained in the swage of these underworlds,
all the hearts bleeding like candles
in forsaken homes,
all the roses that I could have smelled
though never could stitch their wounds
or even touched their stems.
I was all the beautiful words
dimmed to sullen murmurs,
I was all the beautiful girls
that I've loved,
all the hearts that I've ever felt
though never could embrace.
I was all the childhood candies
that I've thrown away
for they were not divided fair,
that were never given with real care,
were never given with the heart that they were taken,
all the pieces of my heart
which have split
with those thrown away candies.
I was all the swollen prides
all the feelings crumbled,
all the truth scrambled,
all the dreams trampled ,
all the effervescing verses,
bottled
and corked in the jar of silence.
I was all the clouds of words
never rained
never poured
never burst
to tears.
