You used to say I was beautiful
That I was all you ever wanted
Not that you've finally moved on
I'm left here, haunted
I can't look into blue eyes
It reminds me of goodbyes
Reminds me of the begging
And all the things I'd rather be forgetting
Reminds me that I never felt good enough
But I wasn't, not for you
Reminds me that evil wears a disguise
And of everything you put me through
How I can't hear certain words
Or allow someone to touch me in certain ways
How even self-medicating with herbs
Can't lighten or take away this weight
This enormous burden you placed on me
The ever increasing entropy
I'm bound for the floor
It's time to close this door
