Have you ever felt so much pain…
Pain that emotionally you couldn’t explain.
How do you explain to anyone the secrets?
The coldness you live in and still remain.
I want to find comfort in someone; anyone.
Maybe if I wasn’t burned and scarred inside.
Faith, hope, and trust in people doesn’t exist.
It’s hard for me to open up and confide.
Have you ever felt the frightening feeling…
The feeling of a monster inside of you?
One that tightens your vocal cords.
Unable to speak and nothing you can do.
Does your chest feel heavy and suffocated?
Does your mouth become painfully dry?
Do you scream at yourself in your head?
Unable to speak you want to give up and die.
Mentally I’m my own worse enemy, a prisoner.
I’ve scarred my own skin just to feel alive.
I miss the comfort and warmth it gave me.
I’d do anything then to just stay alive.
Now I know…
Depression is going to get me.
That much I know for sure.
It’s only a matter of time before I die.
It’s the only thing I want in this world.
