You were late night conversations;
Cuddles with dogs.
Kisses on the forehead light and comforting-
My warmth on a freezing cold night smoking a cigarette on the porch.
You were naked and afraid on Sunday nights after laundry and grocery shopping;
Ice cream in your coffee like nobody’s business and garlic on literally everything-
Vampire jokes.
You were bundles of laughter as we fell into the bed after jumping on it like kids;
Fall fires and scary movies,
S’mores.
You were road trips to the mountains;
Beautiful views and even better adventures,
Then you were late night snuggled after a long exhausting day.
You were paper notes of what needed to be done the next day and Christmas Eve selfies in bed;
Christmas morning breakfast and go to get to the family’s before the kids got up-
A shark movie the night before.
You were all of these things-
But you were also more.
You were anger;
Spilling out of your mouth in vile sentence after sentence.
You were hurt-
Slamming your elbow into the bathroom door and screaming in my face.
You were destructive;
Telling me it was my fault I was attacked-
I punched the solid wooden door and broke my wrist.
You were careless;
You went to bed without checking on me.
You were terrifying-
Griping me up by the collar of my shirt because I got ahold of a picture of you and your ex;
Pinning me to the bed and yelling at me over finances,
Grabbing my arms and shaking me so hard my neck hurt.
You were manipulative;
Threatening to counter press charges after I called the cops on you and take my child away.
You were dangerous;
You nearly killed your ex girlfriend-
You lied about it to my face after I talked to her and confronted you.
You were late night conversations;
Cuddles with dogs.
Then you were drunk nights and physical altercations;
Destruction in your path.
Now I’m left to pick up the broken pieces of me while you pretend to be whole.
