Why can’t I do better…
You can’t… you can only do the best you can…. And sometimes that falls short of better…
Obvious much??
Well you asked…. I just think you aren’t able to control some things…. Especially in your head…
Yeah.. but wtf right?? I hate when I try and fail and try and fail and fail again…
I don’t know what it’s gunna take either…
Im very normal… I just do t want my heart to rot,, leaving me to feign for stuff that only makes me feel bad..
You and everybody else… just keep trying… and stop giving up at the end of the day…
Yeah.. apparently my bed times 10pm.. I turn into a monster after that…
Hard to believe.. but I do believe you…. What is it? Why is it so technical.. could it even help if you understand the technicality’s?
It’s a very technical timeline I live in…. I have no armor.. no defense.. no tolerance.. no… other option… at least.. that’s how it feels.
I hear that type of thing a lot…. It’s not uncommon… but is there anything you can do to be better?
I don’t know yet…. It’s hard… uncomfortable.. miserable you can say… either with or without…
I see why you bring your heart into prospective…
Like even now I feel like shit.. I wallow in hate and destructiveness.. now-one to benefit from…
Maybe you need to really succeed…. If you could do better… and did… wouldn’t you be happy?
I most defiantly would…. The energy in me… IT CONTROLS ME…
No way out?
I guess I could sleep…. Or something…
Your tired….
I know…. Im sick of everything…. I just want to be… happy with who I am…
Yeah… you really deserve to too…. Most people do…
Im never going to hurt or wish this fate on anyone….
That is 100% true too.. ur heart is going to be fine…
Yeah… don’t even get me started on my soul..
I can’t imagine,..
It’s hard to harbor to say the lease…. But I love my self so much….
Yeah…. That’s why your you.. just sayin..
Miserable tho…
Thats what happens when you are done…. With things you wish were over already…
Yeah… I don’t know how much I have in me to try to get better
I know..
Miserable…. Twiztid wrote this skit.. titled.. something like “unable to cry for help or escape from a seemingly impending doom”…
Yeah…. Those guys really care for you… like you…
It’s a long story… but I use to be in there family…. Like really…
I know…. But besides that,, they care like you… I care like you too..
I know we’re family… I’m apart of most peoples family…. I just run away from family cuz family makes me sick….
Yeah… you haven’t been on your own in quite a while…. You get another last shot here soon…
I know. I really want my own time on my hands…. Convoluted with others…. I can’t take it.. there energy,, I’m telling you… it’s horrible..
Dirty people right??
I have no spectrum.. no abnormality’s… nothing to fall back on within to keep me on the right track…
What about you???
That’s what I’m worried about…. I want to be able to… help myself…. But I’m stupid :(
You just need to fill your time.. and follow the rules you think you should.. the ones you know will keep you healthy…. Like honestly… no one know why those cultures in the past did all the “seemingly crazy” stuff they did… but I think your very similar… your on your own.. I’ve herd people tell you that…. I’ve heard a lot of messages to you… that most people would think junk…
I should wright everything down huh…lol
Probably not…
I know I was kidding .. but I feel it’s very puzzling…. One day at a time I guess..
I guess…. I don’t know about that stuff tho…
Yeah… honestly I don’t like that bs much….
I can tell…. Just find hope somewhere.. in something….
Yeah…. I’ll try. And I’ll get on track.. I hate this…
Yeah…. Ttyl..
