Hey,
I’m back here at the bench,
This time with all the photos we took of each other,
All the yearbooks we were in together,
All the greatest memories I ever had,
All of them were with you,
I brought you some hot coco again,
Telling myself that this still isn’t real,
That you’re gone,
That this feels like it’s my fault,
I couldn’t save you in time,
But you remember this picture of us?
We were crazy when we were kids,
Just idly coasting,
Telling each other that we would take on the world,
Kicking butt and taking names,
You remember when you told me you loved me?
I remember it,
Because it made my heart fly out of my chest,
I thought it would be you and I together forever,
Unfortunately,
Forever had an expiration date,
But we still remained friends,
And loved each other unconditionally,
Just like family would,
You were my brother,
Go ahead drink your cocoa,
I really just wanna reminisce about you,
I tried to be happy in front of your family again,
They still blame me for you being gone,
I’ve tried going to therapy,
I feel like the therapist blames me too,
I’ve tried going to AA and rehab,
But every time I think of you,
I nearly relapse,
I’m trying to be strong,
I’m trying to help your fiancée get over you,
She was so happy that you two were gonna get married,
I was so happy to be by your side,
But every time her and I talk about you,
We can’t say what happened in front of mini you;
That’s right you have a kid,
She looks just like you,
It tears me and her apart,
We only see you in her,
So we both try to protect her,
I miss you
