Wishing away
Maybe one day
Trying again
Again agin
Until the end
Searching within
Everything a lie
I won’t die
Maybe if I try
Enough times
I might get something right
Unless
It doesn't matter
Possibly
Which really grinds my gears
Because if it doesn’t really matter
What should I try for
Why should I care
Catering to my behaviors
Should I give up
Is trying over and over again
Really worth it
I would like to think it is
In fact I really hope it is
I don’t want to give up
I’ll continue living
Trying trying
Never dying
Undying
Living a lie
Can I find the truth
Woven between the lines
Designed to keep us trying..
Like we’ve never really had the win
The life I’m in
I guess I chose it
It never really gave me a choice
Life I mean
But I’m response able
I’m able to respond
At least right now
I love who I am
But I have problems
And it feels unfair
But it can always be worse
So I need to try
To keep it from getting worse
The cards fate dealt
I got dealt a tough hand
They say god doesn’t give you more than you can handle…….
