Vulnerable

I want to be vulnerable
Open and emotional
I want to say what I’m thinking
Without censorship

I want to stand tall
In all that I am
And present that to someone I love
With unfailing courage

I want to sink my heels into the soil
Instead of running
At the slightest change in the wind
But not to bare the storm
To revel in the sunshine

I want to spill my insides
And look back at the face of my person
In love with what a beautiful mess I am

Please peer into my darkness
And find value
Instead of imperfections
See my cracks for
What has been built around them
And not for the fissures
From whence they originated

I’m tired of trying to present myself
As an untarnished antique
To these mass produced
Fine china types of people
Who may know my history
But could never understand it

Bring me tarnished titanium
Someone with strength and history
Who I can link hands
And face the storm with
Who will love me a little more
On my bad days