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by safachan Mar 30, 2023 category : Dark, fantasy / unexplained
It took me years to admit that I am nothing but the shadow of the girl that I used to be It took me eons to understand that life is a prison and the endgame is to be set free That love is a lie sold to us as a means to an end That friendship is a trap, a charade, a mere game of pretend That knowledge is a pill, hard to swallow yet a much-needed cure When infested minds overtake your heart, your mind and your very own soul That money is greed yet somehow the currency to your needs That wants and desires are the catalysts, the devil’s seeds That the future is the victim of sunken hopes And dreams are the ghosts of regrets and all those "Nopes" I don’t understand the chaos within my soul I seek things I know for sure will make me whole Yet somehow the more I take, the emptier I feel As if each time I leave behind a part of me as part of the deal Yet I don’t remember agreeing to any terms and conditions Did I venture into a land of willful submissions ? I am lost indeed, yet I am always found By my demons and ghosts to which I am bound Never have I ever felt so alone Rather, it’s the crowds that terrify me to the bone Silence and noise have always felt so right But the loud silence of loneliness I feel amidst others is my un-chosen fight I like to pick my own battles whenever I can However, fate seems to enjoy throwing me around like a madman I am nothing but the shadow of the girl I once was I am a monster begotten by sewing together pieces of flaws A lackey in a battlefield of a war I did not choose to take part in Yet somehow I am the side character of my story when- All I need is to be at peace within my own mind To have these voices silenced and leave the battlefield behind