I am a liar, and a very bad one to boost
I guess that’s what happens to the few of us who learn to lie to hide their feelings
I am not a liar, but that is a lie too
At least, not in anything other than what I really feel inside
I learned from the best how to fake a smile when I must
How to clench my teeth and just pretend
Even when all that lurks inside is hurt, pain and anger
I learned to keep my words inside my head
and turn a blind eye to what to my mind is being fed
I learned to deny the truth that haunts my being
If all it’s going to do is stir the calmness of others’ waters
I came to be the liar that I vowed never to become
Because all I wanted was a hand to shield me from the burning sun
Yet at the end of the day, the liar had to drop the veil
She had to stand in front of the girl whom she promised not to fail
She had to tell the truth to regain the trust she so badly has lost
Day by day, the unmasking brought about a heftier cost
One day, The liar waged a war
She vowed to regain what she has lost before
The mere words she never knew how to utter
And the lands within herself she helped to shatter
The army she gathered was of no honorable mention
The liar became the soldier in a journey seeking redemption
All on her own, she sought to rebuild the foundations
Of the lands of her truth that fell victim to her violations
Useless to say the liar was called a liar by those she used to lie to
They stood in defense of the boundaries she now so desperately wanted to grow
They called her a liar when all she wanted was to scream her truth
As they gathered around the fire burning the witch of her so-called youth
As the flames of accusations burned through her veins
The liar for the first time felt the weight of their chains
To bury your truth and go with the flow
The seed once sown, it's hard to un-sow
Yet the promise she made was signed in blood
The girl she wanted to save was long buried in mud
Into the fire, the liar jumped unafraid
She held in her arms the ashes of the price the paid
She came to understand that no actions can be without consequences
Even if the intention was to hide behind mere pretenses
Suddenly the fire no longer burned her skin
Not sure whether she lost or was this her long sought for win
As she opened her eyes and regained her senses
The liar at last dropped all of her fences
She stood tall and high hand in hand
With the girl whose heart she sought to mend
The girl and the liar no longer estranged
As they both embraced the vows they exchanged
I will no longer deny the "you" that’s in me
Nor will I forsake the truth you crave to see
Fear not the loneliness the road of truth holds
As long as I have you with me, my peace will unfold
I am a liar or that’s what I used to be
Gone are The days I sought acceptance while denying the truth in me
