Wandering through life
with no purpose or direction
thought I knew every emotion
what a misconception
I’ve said those three
coveted words before
although, now when they come out
they mean so much more
you got me thinking now
I never fully felt them as a whole
like an empty shell
drifting around with no soul
taking substances to mask
all the raw emotions inside
but you’ve stripped me naked
left with nothing to hide
you embraced the darkness
and brought to it, a shining light
telling me those feelings were valid
giving me back a reason to fight
something I thought I’d never feel again
you let me take my time
to finally realize that you
were always meant to be mine
that everything before you
was me just moving fragments
until I could figure out
where I was suppose to be sent
but that’s how it had to be
it all happened for a reason
everything was suppose to be temporary
only to last for a season
I had to completely break
to get me to pay attention
for God to get through to me
that this wasn’t my final destination
when I thought I couldn’t keep going
there you were, right in front of me
waiting with the most caring embrace
hoping one day I would see
and when I finally opened my eyes
I realized, I was so wrong
everything I felt before was askew
nothing had ever been this strong
now an “I love you”
doesn’t seem adequate
so I’m writing this for you
every word is meant
you are my sun,
that keeps my world spinning
every battle I go into with you
I know I’m winning
you are my armor,
protecting every inch of my heart
until I met you, I didn’t comprehend
that my life hadn’t really start
you are the reason
I get up day after day
the only person in my life
that I will ask to stay
you are the one of the main causes
for my constant smile
the one who makes me feel beautiful
like I’m actually worthwhile
you push me to be better
simply because you know I can
when I’m on the ground breaking
you hold me and easily understand
you challenge me
which has never been done
when life hands me triggers
you make me not want to run
you are my biggest cheerleader
even if you’re all alone
wherever you are,
that’s my home
you are my one and only
from now until forever
this love can sustain anything
it can never be severed
so know that when I say
that “I love you”
I mean so much more
you’re my first that feels true.
