After reading Control I thought there will likely be more to it, then I read this and thought "yep, there was more to it". Of the two, I personally like this one more. It's denser, heavier and more methodical. I won't pretend to try to understand what they're both about, but in a literary sense, especially the rhyme, this one is piercing. My English teacher back in high school taught us that it's one thing to convey emotions when you write, that's easily done with a decent vocabulary, but it's another to have the reader feel it and know how much what you wrote means to you. If I'm right, I'd say this one means more to you than Control.

Regardless, very well written and I hope more light finds it's way to you inshallah.