I have a Sad

I Have a Sad

Sometimes the light shining through an open door will draw you out of bed

Shining and luminous, full of hope

and maybe something else, maybe love

You're so weary-eyed that you think it's going to set your path aglow

Tickling your eyes, twinkling in the night

Is this moonlight, or is this fire?

I am cold, freezing

hadn't felt warmth in so long

I wouldn't mind a burn, at least it's something

A feeling to awaken the forgotten embers within

Only when I begin to crack, do I realize I am crumbling

Do I realize this light, this fire has blinded me

Numbed me towards everything else

Can I close this door and go back to slumber?

The knob is furious with a passionate light

I don't want to close it

But this insomnia may kill me

I am dying anyway

I turn away, but it's still gleaming

Through tears, through fear

I trembled and cry, growl, scream

I am paralyzed

I am weak

I cannot just turn around

I summon it

The darkness within me

It smiles at me, for it knows

Envelopes me, imbues me

I now am pulsating

Sinews aflame within the void

Absorbing the light

and I close the door

I needed the rest