Shadow of the Past

As I am pretending
That I already felt nothing
As I am acting
That I've move on and fighting

I never thought
That it's hard to fought
When your enemy is nothing
But yourself and your feeling

I tried hard to forget you
But can't stop thinking about you
But i chose to go on and fight
Yet, still crying at night

As the days pass
I came to this point at last
I'm totally fine i guess
I've overcome this mess????

I've move on finally
Maybe now i can live happily
Without you here with me
I can now shine and smile brightly

Then one day i heard
That you're back here for good
All the pain again struck
As the memories flashed back

So I look for the gut
To see you and cut the knot
The knot that still ties me
On the shadow of our memory

That day I realize
When I saw you with my own two eyes
You're special to me still
And that feeling kills

You told me you miss me
I told you "I don't" ironically
But deep down inside is as usual
Gotta tell you, the feeling is mutual ????