I just fall to pieces,
Yet you think I have it good,
Everything I want is you and where you are.
But you're struggling and I can't be there to help,
And that just sends me even lower down.
You say I'll always have you,
And I know your beautiful heart is true, baby...
But do I still have you?
And I'm just so much lost in this myriad of thoughts and feelings,
Swimming around inside my mind like piranhas, constantly.
And I'm not thinking how I'm piling all this on you,
Pushing you down with it all.
You have me, 100%, completely, my lovely love,
I would never cheat on you,
You have my loyalty, my heart, my soul, my body, my hope.
But I'm now so aware that I'm just filling you with negativity and wave after wave after wave of bad crazy energy, sucking the life out of you
And thats not loving you,
That's not what I was dropped on this earth to do.
I'm writing everything down, baby,
So I can see what I'm doing to you, to everyone and to myself.
Life lessons if you like. 48 years too late.
You give me your all and I give you me...
Just not the me I know you need me to be.
And even though I'm broken, suicidal and wallowing in self pity,
I will make my plan and be who we all need.
My life, my love, my hope, my soul depends on it, but I depend on you so much.
My love, my hope and my soul will grow so much.
And you will see the man I should be,
And you will be happy, and proud of me.
I love you endlessly, constantly, devotedly,
I'm finally taking notes of these life lessons.
