I used to proudly think myself strong
That no matter how tough life can get, I will always know where I belong
I used to think of my feet as roots ,far beneath the earth binding me to my truth
Strong and wild stretching all across the land, a testament to my everlasting youth
I’ve lived in dreamland quite often throughout the years
Fought demons and dragons and mourned my loved ones with bloody tears
I thought I would be ready for anything, that I could take on the world
That my heart was strong and my mind will never be stirred
Thinking back on it now, how foolish I have been
No matter how old they get, you can never, a child from their parents Wean
It has been 2,028 days since tragedy struck my soul
My time froze on that day, and I have been constantly losing control
I tend to block the memories to be honest with you
I’m yet to fully reconcile that there was nothing else that I could do
But every time I think I found some peace of mind
I’m haunted by the ghosts of my past, forever confined
I remember that day as if time has never passed
How could it, when I have been trapped all along, aghast
He came back home like always, and I opened the door
As if With my hands I blew the horns of my eternal war
For the first time I didn’t look him in the eyes
Taking for granted the times we shared, not ready for the upcoming surprise
Suddenly I heard the call,
The sounds he used to make whenever the episodes, him befall
However this time the silence was long and deafening
Unable to fathom the loud truth , the air unsettling
And I ran!
Like a madman escaping the prison of solitude, I ran
Barefoot, cold, fuming with freezing heat my strife just began
I never knew fear like the terror that flowed in my blood on that freezing night
As if on overdrive every organ underneath my skin and bones was ready to fight
Knocking on doors I never seen the like of before
Desperate for anything that could pick me up from the sinking floor
But you see, when our eyes turn blind and our voices turn silent
Deep within our genes the truth screams to come to the surface unbent
I started to hate things I used to love so badly before
Car rides in the dark when the deafening silence my heart tore
I prayed that night like a devout saint my heart was stripped naked and bleeding
To not take him away, for this to be a nightmare , in vain pleading
But fate had a plan for him without me in his life
It seemed like the game was over and the player did not survive
They say that fear like a plague invaded the heart and the mind
Once it takes over, the old you will forever, in the past, be left behind
