The calmness here is eerie,
the silence that cuts like a knife
it hits right before the storm,
before I want to give up on life
when the smile isn’t plastic
but soon will come the reign
every pore dripping with resentment
even if I expected the pain
the favors pour out
but it’s all just a false hope
then in the aftermath
I’m left with only bad ways to cope
the depression swallows me
the affection sears my skin
build my walls taller this time
saying next time I won’t let you in
I knew that love wasn’t meant for me
yet I consumed it anyway
once again picking up the pieces
and no consequences do you pay
you won’t see me cry
no, you don’t deserve that much authority
instead I’ll roll my eyes
so the pain you don’t see
I’ll let it all out
at night when all is said and done
reminding myself, this is how it is
left in the end with no one
eventually the anger will die
and the pain will turn cold
the thoughts will dissipate
forever to go untold
and the calmness will come again
but this time accompanied by the pain
everything will be different
turn the reign into rain
as the feelings start to creep in
I’ll erase every shout,
the calm will take over
as the blood seeps out...
