Hey, just keep on smiling, even a fake one can change a lot of things. This piece actually reminded me of a line by Haruno Sakura from the anime, Naruto...
' A smile is the best way to get oneself out of a tight spot, even if it is a fake one.'
Sometimes, we need to be strong for our loved ones, and we don't want to let them down. But there's also comfort in vulnerability. Hopefully, you'll do just fine in times you need to fake smile, you have a genuine smile, or when you want them to see your worries. Take care always.