I constantly feel as though I’m fading..
Just floating in these waters, waiting.
The panic sets in whenever death comes to mind..
All those chemicals in the brain, unjust and unkind.
When those feelings take over,
My body filling with stress,
I keep feeling like I’ll go insane and it’ll cover
Every inch of my being, my life even more a mess
Plus, being in this state of numbness and pain,
It feels very strange, and so simply plain
That even this also makes me feel like I’m crazy,
All these overwhelming feelings, leaving me hazy.
But as Strange as it might sound…
It does seem easy.. for the most part,
With what people around me have said;
That I have a still beating heart..
And it’s just all in my head.
At the end of the day,
Whether in seconds, minutes, hours,
Weeks, months, or even years
I still have the right to say
Who I am and what is ours
I don’t need to worry of who hears
My thoughts are my own, it’ll always be.
Whether I’m alone or home, I’m still free to be Me.
That’ll forever be enough to keep my soul alive,
And as long as I love myself, I’ll infinitely thrive.
So as far as death goes,
As mysterious as it always is,
It’s still yet To Be Determined…
