I tried to love you less, but I couldn't,
It's hard not to love—love is like a human need.
You have to live and breathe it every day.
I tried to love you less,
Even on the days when I woke up in the morning
And all I wanted was to sink into your existence,
Hear your voice say the silliest and stupidest things
Your mind could think of.
I tried to love you less,
Especially when you talked about someone else...
And how special that someone is, to this day, to you.
I heard your stories about a special person on a special day,
I felt envy in every particle of my body,
In every drop of my blood.
I tried to love you less,
Painfully on the days when your attention was entirely on me,
When you kissed me by surprise,
When your hand rested on my waist
And when your face was so close I could smell your coffee breath.
I tried to love you less,
The day I found out about her,
The day I finally knew who your heart belonged to,
Even if I already knew it wasn't me.
I tried to love you less,
Every day I convinced myself that I didn't love you anymore,
Because it's impossible not to love you.
I don't want to love you less,
I don't want to love you more.
