Can’t hold it in any longer
So, I retreat to my safe space
Where I can let it all out and be free
Visitors don’t have a place
I won’t say a word
Cause then you will know
These emotions here are something
I can never show
Don’t call, don’ t text
Eventually I’ll be back
But I need this when it starts to topple
All those emotions built onto a stack
It may be something small
To you that was so insignificant
But to me it triggered something
Even if that’s not what you meant
What I heard may be different
Or maybe I just read between the lines
And now around me to say that
You’re stepping around land mines
So, I’ll take it all back
And add it to my ever-growing pile
But letting you see my weakness
Well, that’s not my style
No instead I’ll get distant
I’ll become silent
And my insecurities will move in
No longer just having a place to rent
And this safe space will grow warmer
From my frequent visits
Until you point out that it’s not my safe space
Because now someone else here sits
But while I was loving you
I somewhere got lost
Between the need and the want
And my smile was the cost
Somewhere priorities shifted
For someone being so smart I was so stupid
Not being honest from the start
Would ever keep me lucid
Had I opened up about my feelings’
Maybe we wouldn’t be here
Maybe we’d both be happy
Maybe things would be clear
I’ve never wanted to give up on you
You’re the only thing I’m sure of
The only thing keeping me going
Is you, is this love
So, the emotions may continue to build
And I may not know how to cope
But never doubt this,
If there’s tears, there’s still hope.
