Depths

Wasn't this what I wanted?
Why'd you have to come back
And make me realize it wasn't?

I can't put the blame on you
And that makes me detest myself
Even more than I already do

A part of me fears
That you'd resurface from my depths
With a different notion
Of who you took the plunge for

And I'd seem like a mistake
And you'll say what you want to say
And we'll love and loathe each other
In our own twisted ways

Oh how I despise you
For making me despise myself
For not being with you