For it was love whom hurt me when you were done and you were through.
The simplest of words from your lips cut so deep
As i sobbed and sobbed myself to sleep.
Why can't I get you out of my head?
I still try to help you when I blocked my head.
I tried to get rid or you on social media. .
But we talked it through. . And I fell deeper.
You cared for me just enough to pass by. .
But you still stung me right in my mind.
Im confused, im dazed, I'm stuck in a maze.
Why can't I stop thinking of you. . Im caught in this daze.
We are just friends we are not lovers.
I think of you highly and I think of no other.
I guess im the sad story of a good friend like no other.
I just admire you from afar. To be honest. . You make a good father.
Your mind is so beautiful, So smart and so brave.
You care about all the ones around you and your heart is astray.
You don't know who to love, you've been hurt so many times before.
You helpted me plenty of times and we both picked eachother off of the floor.
I've been trying to keep my distance for I believe I'm not the one.
You looked at me in disgust once and I cantnot unsee when you feels became undone.
I always dream of one day just hugging you so tight.
But I know I cannot do anything upon that. The heart wants you to be alright.
I want you to be happy. I want you to know . .
That my love for you will be untold.
A secret. . A burden. . My undoing. . My conundrum.
I really do love you. .
But I know you love another.
I wish I could tell you that the other is just using you!
She is married to another and she will never choose you!
Shes done this before but you choose to see it through.
I never forget the time you broke down crying because of her and the trauma she had caused you.
You say you learned an important lesson. But your doing it again. . So what was the lesson?
I cant help but feel like the 3rd wheel . . Upon your situation.
For ive fallen in the dark and im lost in contemplation.
Do I push you aside or fall deeper in desperation. . Or Push my love aside and tell him the damnation?
Tell him that I love him only to be crushed again?
Hurt my heart and lose a close friend?
I love him to much to lose him again.
But I love him and lose him to this chaotic friend?
Your not worth it anyway Lisa. You should never love again.
Look what happened last time? And that time again.
Everyone has forsaken you. . They will do it all again.
Even your family looks down upon you in shame.
Your the burden, your ugly, you are useless and scary.
Just sleek back into the shadows.
For its your home and you won't be lonely.
Shadow. . Im shadow. . Never to be seen. Never to be a sorrow.
Just fly away. . Let them play. Dance away like a swallow.
Sore your wings. . Let them sing. You will never be there for them tomorrow.
They will forget you. They don't want to know you.
You will forever be... shadow.
