Away I Waste

They say I can have
that which I desire in my heart
but what I get
it just tears me apart

every day I pray
but it doesn't seem to do any good
life just sucks
and these pills don't work like they should

the words that I speak
no one seems to believe
and to the whole world
it's me they're trying to decieve

everything that I see
is so warped and twisted
I don't know what's coming next
that's why my hands are fisted

a hole in my heart
makes me unable to love
the few who care
are the ones that away i shove

advice comes my way
but I never seem to take it
no matter how good it seems
I'd rather just forget it

people have faith in me
so why can't I
why do people suck
why can't I die

I try to express my feelings
I try to explain the pain
but no one believes me
they all think I'm insane

why do they doubt me
why don't they see
that my heart can truly love and feel
and there's a decent human being inside of me

they can't seem to open their eyes
I don't think their emotions exist
they're waiting for me to fall
they're looking for a reason to make me feel dissed

for when will this all end
when will the pain go away
I don' think this will ever end
but perhaps it will be today

howevr I doubt it will be
my world isn't worth anything
so why should I try
if I won't amount to a damn thing

I might as well call it quits
throw in the towel and my faith
sit and write
as away I waste