Your anger and frustration
Are palpable.
My tears are real.
My sorrow yanks me down,
I can't get close enough to your touch
You're so far away...
So far away..
I only wanted to tell you
... I'm sorry...
Sorry.
It echoes in our empty bedroom.
Sorry.
It pushes us aside
And creates a canyon between us.
I'm sorry.
The words spill out,
as hot and fresh as my tears.
Sorry-
This guilty emotion
Holding me hostage.
Sorry-
I ate the food right out of your mouth
And didn't think twice
About how hungry you were.
I'm sorry-
My flaws look back at me
From the inside of the mirror
And they beg for the forgiveness
That I'm not allowed to give them.
Im so hungry,
Desperate for your love...
Clinging to a faded hope that you'll stay.
But everyone left.
So why wouldn't you?
You tell me you're not mad.
You tell me you love me.
You tell me what's really bothering you
But I
I just
I can't.
I can't keep up the charades.
The masking.
Somehow,
I'm convinced you'll leave-
Shattering my helpless world
Like a fragile glass.
And I can't
Look you in the eye
And tell you how terrified I am
Of losing someone
That means so much
so soon.
Tell me I'm okay.
Kiss my forehead like you do,
Hold me,
Heart against beating heart
And promise me you'll stay.
Promise me
That the palpable rage you feel
Isn't against me.
Promise me it'll get better.
Promise me...
And I'll still say I'm sorry.
Because that one tiny word
Is all I'm conditioned to say.
It pops out,
Ruining the castle we strive to build.
You ask me why...
And I blurt it out again,
Unable to contain
The accident that I am,
Unable to stop myself
From clumsily breaking
The porcelain plates you
Ever so delicately placed.
And if our love
is only a mask
to hide my "Sorry" s...
I'll put it back on
to keep you around.
