It will never be me

I hope you find whatever it is you’re looking for in the random women whose beds you try to get into-
But it will never be me.
And I can hear your voice in my head lying through your teeth;
Telling me all you ever wanted was me but where was the proof?
Every woman on the planet seemed to be better than me in your head-
Ones from twenty years ago or ones you’ve been talking to for a couple hours,
The time never mattered just as long as their bodies were prettier right?
But despite all of the trauma I’ve been through I’m still the sweetest person
you’ve ever met when you’re not hurting me;
And you’ll never be able to replace that with some girl who has a bigger butt or a degree in sleeping with barely divorced men.
We both know it;
And perhaps if you’d fought for me when you had me like you are now-
You wouldn’t be searching for me in everyone else.
Your time clock is running out;
I’d give it three months before you put a ring on someone else’s finger and resent yourself-
And them-
For everything that reminds you that you lost me.
But I hope you find whatever it is you’re searching for in all of these women-
Because it will NEVER be me.