He was the greatest love of my life.
All this time I spent thinking,
that I'd one day become his wife.
But I was gripping, as our love was sinking.
True love in an afterlife.
I tried, with great effort, to make us work.
To hold on completely and give my all,
but heartbreak has a mind and it waits to lurk.
Our love was crashing and we were in free fall.
Now looking back with endless fights,
I wake up to the sudden space and realize,
lots of tears and sleepless nights,
not worth losing you and it wasn't right.
It all just feels like one bad dream.
That I haven't really lost it all.
That I'll wake up and it'll be you and me,
that loss won't become my permanent reality.
And I miss your kiss and I miss your touch.
And I wonder in moments where you are,
and I wonder every day if you miss me much,
or if you've forgotten me and hold a grudge.
And what did we gain from all of this?
I wonder now alone and quiet.
When what we had was a state of bliss.
Was it worth the words that stole our kiss?
All I ever wanted was some happiness,
without all of the ups and downs.
You may not think it, but it was my wish.
I know I made it hard to be around.
Now as I sit on the ground thinking,
wondering what I'm going to do with this ring...
He said it was just a promise, I thought it was an engagement,
it doesn't even matter now -- it was something.
He was all I needed this whole time.
A bit of understanding would have helped.
All I ever wanted when he was mine,
couldn't even speak the words good-bye.
He was the greatest love of my life.
All this time I spent thinking,
that I'd one day become his wife.
But I was gripping, as our love was sinking.
True love in an afterlife.
