awful feelings within my chest
try to bury me alive -
ef it, i say in my head,
i'm not gonna try
not again.
i've had a week of patience
i cannot do this anymore.
this dreadful feeling i live with
suffocates me forever more.
it's not him who traumatises me
it is the feelings i nurtured in that past
that didn't last,
that didn't even try to stay with me,
only crept up to abandon me completely:
the forevers, the lover, the shower,
the home, the name, the show,
the disgrace.
i tried real hard,
i gave it my all,
gave up all my dreams,
leaving only one as what i wanted to see,
but nothing lasts.
she would've made such a lovely bride
what a shame she'd f--ked in the head they said,
i hope you never find the real thing instead,
i hope i haunt you in every lifetime when you come alive.
aa jave dil tera, pura vi na hove.
