I can’t sleep because I’m imagining you again. Ugghhh I can’t wait to see what your eyes look like. And I know you’ll have such a gorgeous smile. Do those beautiful eyes crinkle at the corners when you’re in your happiest moments? Does happiness just radiate off of you when you laugh? I know physically you’ll be stunning, but we both know that won’t be the thing that truly makes me fall for you. It’ll be your kindness. Your generosity towards others. The way you see the good in others even when people around them may lose sight of it. It’ll be the little things you do. Do you dance in the kitchen when you cook? If you can cook haha. If not, let’s learn together and dance around the kitchen together. Do love music as much as I do? Will you appreciate little sticky notes full of “I love yous?” I know you’ll have humor. Are you quick witted? Do enjoy dark humor? Will you laugh at my terrible dad jokes and puns? Will you roll your eyes after them while you have that smile that lights up my world on your face and utter the words “you’re an idiot”
You’ll know that’s one of my favorite ways to be told “I love you” because you’ll actually know me. Do you make random little sounds or faces when you’re bored? Will you look at me as a sense of safety? Will you be mine? Will you teach me the ways to calm your anxiety and let me sit with you and hold you if you reach rock bottom? Will you let me lighten your load until you can carry it again?
Will you let me learn the way you like your coffee or tea? Can we cuddle on the couch and read books? Are you ticklish? I will absolutely be tickling you if you are. And don’t worry, if you rub my back you’ll find out that I giggle like a little school girl if certain points are touched lightly. Would you let me pamper you and treat you like the goddess you are? Will you let me show you a kind, gentle love that you’ve always been deserving of? Will you do the same for me? It’s crazy to think I miss someone I’ve never even met. I know you’re out there. I can feel it. I can feel you.
