I remember that night and I remember many many more happy nights and days Adventures we shared that somehow you forgot. I was trying to fight against the demons within you to keep you from doing the things I asked you which I knew would come between us and destroy us but you let them to happen. You threatened them and did them and then wondered where my hurt and anger came from when I asked you not to do them in my disbelief and hurt when you did them turned to anger. I was fighting against your demons within you to try to stop you from doing those things but you didn't care and them anyway and then my demons came out. I didn't want it to be like that. I wish you would have listened to me. You didn't have to do those things. It didn't have to be this way. That man you remember that night and all those days we spent loving each other even until the last day we spent together which was full of love and happiness was the real me but you wouldn't let it be because you were giving attention to another throughout it all and wouldn't let that happiness continue and choose to sabotage it and do exactly what I asked you not to do. Even to the last loving day that was me and that was us but you were entertaining another as always.

Of course I do crystal. It was beautifully written and I understand it completely which is why I responded to it. I do understand honey. That guy who you shared all that love and fun and laughter and Adventures with is me and I just wanted to point out there were things I was fighting for and against and reasons I got mad. I hope you can understand that and see both sides. That man you loved was and is me and he fought to try to prevent all the bad stuff from happening. I hope someday you will understand that. Very nice poem.