What’s this hurt I am bearing?
What’s this pain that exhausts me?
I don’t understand cause I’m not the person I’m supposed to be.
My heart is broken,
My body weak,
Silence is golden, no words do I speak.
I don’t understand why it all went wrong.
I used to be happy I thought that I could somehow belong.
Why does it hurt so much?
Why does it have to be this way?
Every day I hope that some how everything will be okay.
I cry endless tears at night,
The nights are as dark as my soul,
I try seeking for the truth that never seems to be there, will I ever find it, and will it ever be told?
I’m trapped, unable to escape,
No matter where I seem to wander the darkness follows.
Will I ever be free or have I become bound to its fate.
Why can’t I find the love that I try so desperately to find?
Will I ever find it, is it really there?
I need to seek it for this pain is too much for me to bear.
My mind is clouded from confusion,
Anger burns deep inside me,
How I long to end such hurt,
I just want to be free.
I don’t know what I’ve become
Don’t know who I am anymore,
Is this thing called life really worth fighting for?
I just want redemption,
Find it somewhere within,
I need to seek all that I lost,
Need to rid all of my sins.
If there is still hope,
Its something I need to find,
I need to pick myself up,
And leave my dark days behind.
I just need the motivation,
I need to find the light,
Before I can make a start to make the wrong things right.
Need to build up my strength,
I’ll find away,
To escape from depression that has lead me astray.
I got to get back my life,
Its what it is I need to restore,
Life is an essential gift and it’s definitely worth fighting for.
