Should i die or not

Every minute of my life i feel like dying
In the night I go to sleep crying,

I wish i could take this pain away
But i want to got the right way,

I don't want to use a gun
But i don't want to run,

All i do is run from anything thats good for me
But if i die what will i be,

Just a dead body buried in the dirt
Nobody is even going to be hurt,

Ill just kill myself now
So all the pressure will go down.