My secret

I have a secret,
which I have told no one,
they would laugh at me,
and who I've become.

I am not happy,
I always lie,
I am fat,
I deserve to die.

I look in the mirror,
I hate what I see,
I am so ashamed,
don't look at me!

The fat is bulging out,
from every side,
this is something
I'm trying to hide.

Food is not good,
it's my enemy,
Anorexia is
my destiny.

You tell me to eat,
You say I'm not fat,
go away,
I'm not eating that!

You tell me I look like a skeleton,
and you always begin to cry,
I'm sorry, but I cannot eat anything,
I would rather die.

I don't want to hear you,
I don't want to hear your voice,
it's my body, it's my life,
and it's my only choice.

Being skinny,
has become a duty,
because no one cares
about inner beauty.

Everyone is denying it,
but we all know it's true,
think about it,
you know it too.

I know other peoples problems
are so much bigger than mine,
therefor I should fake my smile
and pretend to be just fine.

Because I am not worthy
of being called someone,
I am not worthy,
I am no one.

Just one bite,
I feel so much guilt,
this is the pain
Anorexia has built.

For skinny,
I would kill to be,
because of the Anorexia
inside of me.

Jen: Please don't do this to yourself :'(

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