19 with a kid

I'm 19 and I have a 1 1/2 old son, its been rough but the ride has just begun. I feel like I have no 1 except 4 myself, how an I going to raise a baby boy into a man all by myself?? Will he respect me and be a good man? All I can do is pray and leave it in Gods hands. It's so hard being a single mom, sometimes I feel like I just can't go on. I feel like I'm gonna break and go insane but I can't I gotta stay strong for my baby. All my hard work will soon pay off, but I get impatient and start 2 think why did I have 2 be the one 2 get knocked up? In a way I'm glad I did. I was on a path where destruction awaited @ the end. I was into drugs and the whole club scene, taking x and drinking 40's. If it wasn't 4 my son I wonder where I would be, probably dead from an OD. My son makes me so happy, he changed me for the good. When he grows up he'll see mama has done good. Even though my son has his days, he can be a little sh*t and make my hair go all sorts of ways. I still love him so innocent and small, I love when he sleeps cause I can tickle his rosy little cheeks. Even though I may complain, I gotta suck it up and make it look like I can maintain. I know I can do it, I'm a strong young woman. I'm gonna do it and show everyone who said I couldn't.