My mistake

I made mistake, i did the "do",when i knew i wasn't supposed to.
I thought it was fun I thought it was cute, all because i wanted to please a dude. And now I'm pregnant, lost and confused, contemplating on what to do. Should I keep this child or give it away, as i pondered some more. my final conclusion I wanted an abortion, I've always been against it but now it's different.
So I go to the doctor, they get me prepared, I have to admit, I'm extremely scared. A woman holds my hand, she tells me it's alright. I clinch her hand tighter as I began to cry. The pain is so strong and I want them to stop, but they say they can't stop, the baby is almost out. When they tell me it's over, I hear an unsettling scream, I cant forget what has happened to me. I hear soft cries I can't get them to stop. And now each time I see a mother and child, my heard slowly drops, I hate what they have done to me, but what I hate most is what I have done to my baby.