So confused

Torn in two
Don’t know what do
I love you all
But I jus want to bawl
I wonder why
I have to live a lie
I want to tell
But will you start to yell
I want to confide it
But what anger will you emit
I wanna tell you, I know my dad
But how will you react, happy, sad, or mad
I can’t express my love
But when push comes to shove
I guess you want me to choose
I don’t want anyone to lose
I can’t keep it to myself, you have to know
I have to let go
You have the right
I hope it won’t start a fight
I love you with all my heart
But what will this start

*** for those of you who didnt read my post in the fourm, this poem is to my adopted parents about my biological dad********