I loved you
I hated you
I wanted you
I despised you
When i was sad and you helped me,
I loved you
When we fought and screamed,
I hated you.
When i was alone and scared,
I wanted you.
When you left me forever,
I despised you.
Now that your gone,
I know that i love you
Now that you left me for someone else,
I know that i hate you.
Now that your not here holding me,
I know that i want you.
Now that your leaving me,
I know that i despise you.
All along you knew my strengths and weaknesses,
I still love you.
You used my weaknesses to hurt me,
I still hate you.
You left me alone and cold,
I still want you.
You screamed and fought with me before you left me,
I still despise you.
Now it all comes together for me,
All along I've loved you and i always will.
The times i told you that i hated you,
were all fake i thought that it would make you stay,
but it didn't.
The times i wanted you,
were all true and,
I still want you.
The times i despised you,
were never there,
I thought that you would hate me too,
and stay just to make me mad,
but now You're gone and i know that i should of just loved you.
I was afraid to be loved,
so i was afraid to love in return.
You tried so hard to love me,
I shut you out,
I wouldn't even let you touch me,
although i wanted to feel your arms around me.
Now that your gone,
I'm still afraid to be loved by anyone except for you,
So I'm still afraid to love in return.
This originally started as a song but i made it into a poem just because i couldnt find a way to put it to a melody or a rythm
